A mini life update + podcast re-branding + YouTube channel

Hello everyone! How are you doing?! I hope you are staying safe and trying to keep your head up high! If you are not doing okay, please do not stop trusting God and keep trying to be positive. All will be okay, even when it really does not seem like that!

It really feels like it has been a while since I have been on here and I feel very bad about that. A lot has happened though and I removed all my followers here on the blog- this was an okay decision, by the way. I honestly kind of want to start again and start afresh-like a new beginning. I am also thinking of a new name for the blog. So yeah, that is what is up with the blog.

How am I really doing?! No worries, I will be talking about it a little bit here.

Mini life update

Okay, so, I have not really been okay which explains my absence here on the blog. This year has been a lot on me but my trust remains in God and I know that everything will be okay. Yeah, so I took a halt on my blog and podcast for the majority of January and I recently came back at the end of January. I honestly do not want to give up, so here I am fighting to keep going despite everything I am going through.

I have had a lot of bad days this year and it has been very not nice because whenever I go through that kind of day, I really don’t want to get out of bed and I just want to sit alone in a dark room. It’s not nice at all but I am fighting and trying to keep my head up high and to keep being positive; it has not been easy but I just have to keep fighting for myself, you know. That’s the life update:))

Podcast Re-branding

Alright, about my podcast re-branding that I told you all about some time ago, it’s been a mess. Due to all I am going through, I honestly took a halt there too. Although most of the work has already been done, I still have to catch up all the posts from the old Instagram page on the new Instagram page and that really is all that is left. This is not even hard to do, I have just not been able to get myself to do it but I will take it one thing at a time, and by the end of February, hopefully I will be done.

By the way, if you do not already know about this, I have a podcast called, “Talkative and Christian”. It is a podcast that is majorly about self-improvement, raising awareness on different controversial issues, and faith(Christianity). If you are interested, you can go to anchor.fm/talkativeandchristian. Thank you!

YouTube channel

I have a YouTube channel! It’s called “Barakat Jay” on YouTube. You can go check out my YouTube channel if you would like and while you are there, please subscribe and watch the videos. Thank you!

This is something I am really excited about and I hope it really works out amazingly well:))

Well, that is all for today’s post. I just wanted to update you all and get back on here to start writing again. As always, thank you for your support, I really appreciate it.

You can leave a comment, introducing yourself to me! I want to know more about my readers! Also, tell me how you are really doing in the comments.

I will see you all later! Byee!!

Don’t forget that God loves you forever and that you are never alone:))

Some days rain; Some days no rain(a poem)

I know I am dying and I feel death at the tip of my finger,

On the top of my eyelids and on the scars that mark up my body

Not complete death of me but death of parts that make up me

It really feels like I am slowly dying but what do I call this?

A funk, a rut or maybe it has fully progressed into depression

Some days, I am bursting with hope

Like a farmer during raining season

On days like this, I feel on top of world and above my problems

And that nothing can stop my lips from crawling into a smile

I feel fulfilled, and full with purpose and direction.

But some days, I am left to burning with hopelessness

Like a farmer during a tough season of drought

On days like that, I am completely lost in the absence of my reality

Buried deep in my pile of rubbish;

Characterised by the feeling of loss of direction and purpose

Yes, those are the days when it dawns on me that I am dying

Dying slowly maybe not shortly

I am losing air and slowly but shortly,

I am forgetting how to breathe.


Hi people! How are you doing?! I really hope that you are okay and doing alright! Please don’t forget to always try to keep your head up high and don’t ever stop trusting in God! He is always there for you:)

I know, it’s been a while since I have posted something on here and honestly, I have been going through IT! I am trying to sort things out and trying to get back here on my blog, it has not been easy but I’ll be back by God’s grace.

As always, thank you for reading! I will see you in my next blogpost:))

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Take care and please do not forget that God loves you forever and I am always here rooting for you!!

The end of a great time; the beginning of a GREATER time.

Hii people! What’s up y’all! I really hope everyone is doing okay. If you are not, I really hope you are trying your best to keep your head up and I also hope that you have not forgotten that you have God by your side and you will always have Him by your side. I am always rooting for you:)

So, how am I doing? I have been pretty occupied with a lot of things. I am trying to finish all my school work before we get back to school. I am trying to reach out to a lot of people just to see how they are doing and to check on them. I have also been trying to plan for 2021, and get myself together and start moving and doing things that I need to do. Yeah, that is about it.

Let’s move onn

This is my last post of the year 2020, and I am really excited and all smiley. It has been an amazing year for this blog and I am just so grateful to God, and to you people who are always reading my posts, and those of you who follow this blog. Y’all don’t know how much your support has really impacted me. It has kept me going, and has made me try harder, and put in my best for this blog. Therefore, I am extremely grateful to and for all of you!

When I put out my first blogpost at the end of June, I did not really have a plan, and I didn’t really know what I was doing. I just knew that I am very passionate about writing, and I really wanted to impact lives with my writing; I hope I did so this year. Having a blog was not something I was very familiar with but God has been so good to me, regarding this blog.

I have been writing different things here, and every single time, I am still so surprised when I see that people are reading my posts, liking, commenting, and even following my blog. I do not and will never take it all for granted because you have all really made me smile this year. It is really amazing and special to me when people support me and I just thank God that people appreciate my writing, and support me. I honestly don’t know why each individual that reads my posts reads it, but I hope my stories, and my writings have brought a smile to your face, or even just impacted you in a very positive way. I really do hope so.

So about 2021, I don’t know what direction my writing is going to go but I am very positive that greater things are coming. I am also very positive that God is going to do greater and much more amazing things through this blog. This is just the beginning y’all! I am so excited for stories that I am going to tell, and lives that are going to be positively impacted through this blog.

One thing for 2021 though, I hope to be much more consistent with writing, especially on this blog. Although, I love writing, and sharing my stories, sometimes I just get into a funk or get really dissociated that I stop writing. I hope I get better, and become a much more better writer and even though, I still find it very difficult to call myself a writer, a blogger, and a poet, I pray that I don’t stop writing. I know that God has my back always, so I am very positive of the things to come.

Before I publish this post, I want to talk to you guys..

I know that 2020 was not the best year, and I know that we all dealt with so much this year that no one probably knows about. I know we all fought silent battles, and probably fell so many times. Yes, we went through so much but I just want to say that don’t let it stop you from flying. Don’t let your problems, and issues drag you down and bury you deep that you lose yourself. Try and fight for yourself! Try to keep your head up and keep reaching for the sky. Try and keep going for yourself. Most importantly, try and rest, take a break when you know that you really need it.

God is never leaving your side, so be rest assured that you will be okay. I know sometimes, it feels like we are going to die with our problems but I’m here now telling you that no, that is not going to happen. YOU WILL BE OK! I know this because God says so! So, keep moving and know that Barakat(me) is always here rooting for you and will always be here rooting for you.

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Love you all always, and thank you for everything!