Hi y’all! Happy Thanksgiving! How are you doing? I really hope you are still fighting for yourself and you are trying your best to keep your head high up despite whatever you are currently going through in life. Remember, I am always here for you to talk to:)
So, how am I doing? I honestly don’t know how I feel; I know I am just living. Although, there is this part of me that’s bursting with positive energy and the feeling of excitement all because of God’s goodness. Other than that, I honestly just don’t know how I feel and what to feel; I kinda feel just so blank. Don’t worry, I am okay though, I promise. I’ll always be okay:)
Alright, let’s move on..
Okay, so I just finished watching a show(don’t ask me for the name). It was a rude awakening really and I think it’s the reason why I suddenly feel so blank. You know, my head is full of just so many thoughts, things I want to say but that feeling of blankness is still so obvious and it’s just there. This show just really moved me and I feel stuck in the reality that the show has pushed me into.
I am not going to explain what the show is about here, I am just going to tell y’all some things that the show told me and some things I got from it. Maybe, I’ll also be able to explain why I am in this state of not knowing what to feel(just maybe).
One big thing that the show speaks on is isolation. I truly believe that when most of us hear about isolation, we think of cases of people like Genie but isolation doesn’t have to be severe for it to be present. I feel like a lot of people in this world, although they have friends, and families, are suffering from their own type of isolation. Somehow, most of us just don’t feel like we have people around us and we just feel so isolated from the world around us. We can see the people around us but we can’t feel them. We feel stuck in this big bubble that can’t fit anyone else except us. We feel lost despite being surrounded by a crowd. We feel faraway, disconnected from the reality of people around us. We can’t seem to acknowledge this people who are around us. We truly feel stuck in our own little bubble that no one else can get into or maybe no one has tried to get into..
For some of us, it might seem like we are very big extroverts but the truth is that we really don’t know how to properly interact with the world around us. We feel away(gone) and we feel like no one is looking after us. We feel like no one can truly see us; we feel like people are around but are not truly there with us. So Yes, the feeling of isolation is real and many of us experience it, although most of us don’t acknowledge it, for whatever reason. Most of us do feel like this little unwanted pea amongst a field of big crops. We feel left out and not seen. You know, sometimes our feeling of isolation can be seen or perceived as a product of our imagination but you honestly can’t blame people(well, the ones who think like that) because sometimes we might just be too shallow to see beneath the surface. It’s sad but it’s reality..
Another thing that the show speaks on is not knowing how we feel; not being able to express our emotions. I think this is exactly what I am feeling right now; maybe I unconsciously got too deeply affected by the show. Anyway, the feeling of not knowing what we feel and how we feel is truly real.
Sometimes, we just don’t know.. You know, I feel like this can be caused by so many things. Maybe you’ve felt too much and now this feeling of blankness has been cast on you. Maybe you’ve been hurt too much and now your mind is just blank. Or maybe you just cannot explain it, I don’t know honestly because I have not got all the answers. All I just know is that this can truly happen to you and it doesn’t mean you are weird, you are just human; I think by now we should all have realized that being human is very complex.
If you are experiencing this feeling right now, I honestly don’t know what to tell you because I am also feeling it. I’ll just say that don’t let it stop you from moving. Don’t let it tie you up, you can still keep going but if you feel like you truly need a break, then go for it. Keep moving but realize that you are allowed to stop for a break sometimes. Don’t worry, you’ve got this! We are all going to be fine..
You know, when I started writing this post, I didn’t know what direction it was going to go but if you are reading this, that means you read it to the end. I hope you got what I was trying to say because you know, sometimes my thoughts are all jumbled up..
Anyway, don’t forget to keep fighting and I promise you because God is a good God, you’ll be okay. You can leave a comment if you relate or if you have any thoughts or questions. I really love reading comments and replying to them. God bless! Bye y’all:)
Hi people! How’re you?! I really hope you’re taking care of yourself and you’re being kind to yourself despite whatever you’re going through in your life. I really hope so..
So, how’s Bee doing? She’s fine. She’s still so busy with school and some different extracurricular activities. Despite it all, God is still taking care of her and He’s still being so good to her; so she’s thriving.
Okay, okay, let’s start with today’s post already!
First let me define inevitable for you. According to the Oxford Dictionary, inevitable means “certain to happen; unavoidable.” I think this is pretty clear, right..
So, death is unavoidable. We cannot avoid death because at some point in our lives, we will die. We would leave Earth and we will be gone away from here.
The question now is that if death cannot be avoided, then why are we so so scared of it??
I really think that we humans put so much effort into building our lives here on Earth, that the topic of death becomes noise to our ears that hate noise. We spend our whole life chasing the bag and trying to build a good life for ourselves here on Earth. Due to the amount of time we use to chase after a good life, we don’t want our efforts to be wasted. We don’t want to just disappear from here and leave behind all we have worked so hard for.
Or we can look at it from another perspective. Maybe people are so scared of dying because they are enjoying life too much. We are diehard fans of enjoyment that feel like our lives would be empty without all the fun and good stuff of life. We just don’t want to be gone and miss out on all the fun. We want to remain here on Earth and keep enjoying and keep exploring all that Earth has to offer. We don’t want to leave the good life..
Actually, there’s another perspective.. Maybe we are so scared of dying because of all the relationships that we’ve either built or just gotten roped in here on Earth. We don’t want our loved ones to experience the feeling of loss, and to get bitten by the blood-sucking fangs of pain. We want to stay here forever with the people we love because they just mean too much to us and we also mean too much to them. Yeah, love and relationships are reasonable reasons to not want to get off Earth.
There are honestly too many perspectives to look at it from, and no matter what kind or how many perspectives you look at it from, on Earth, there are people who want to die so bad and people who want to stay alive so bad. I feel like as a society, we don’t acknowledge enough the people of this society who think that getting off Earth is the best thing they can do for themselves. I mean I get it because it’s not so easy to see deep into everyone’s minds and see exactly why they think the way they think. Hmm
Dying is viewed as a sacred topic in our society but when people intentionally die, is it still something sacred?! Death is a topic that we should really address more often because if it was talked about more often, then maybe, just maybe the suicide rate would go down by a lot. A lot of us fail to realize that death can be an option or a choice, and that’s where most of us are faulty. We treat people badly, we say mean stuff to them, we are not kind, we don’t help if we have the ability to, and all of these things just highlight the fact that death can be an option or a choice. Somebody can choose to die because of how people treat them, and this is one of the biggest reasons why some people choose death.
Some people don’t see death as inevitable, they see it as a friend they can call on anytime. I know it’s really really sad but it’s true. So much stuff go on in our heads and minds and these stuff can drive us crazy and make us see death as a choice rather than something that we can’t avoid as humans. It’s a very complex topic..
Okay, so I am afraid of death?? I don’t think I am, really; I believe that anything that happens is God’s will. So, there’s really nothing to be scared of, for me, because I know it can happen anytime whenever God thinks it’s right . Maybe I also feel this way because I don’t have very deep relationships yet but I don’t know.
In all, death is a topic that we, as a society need to acknowledge more but please don’t let death or the fear of death or the thought of death stop you from living your life, and chasing your dreams, of course in a pure and godly manner.
Although, death is inevitable, it is totally understandable and human to be very scared of it.. I just pray that God will continue to keep us all safe and keep protecting us in Jesus name. Amen!
You can leave a comment if you want; maybe you have a question or just a thought. Bye!
Currently I’m a little bit sleepy and so so cold but I had to write this post for today. I didn’t post at all last week and I felt so bad. Yeah.. Don’t worry, I’m writing a post explaining why I didn’t post soon.🙃🤍
Let’s move on now..
Hi y’all:) How are you doing?? I really hope you are doing fine.. If you’re not, I pray that you get better very soon by God’s grace!
So, for me, how am I doing?? Honestly, I am good, although I have been pretty busy. I’ve been busy with school, and many different activities. I can’t complain though because I chose to do all those activities. Anyway, let’s get into what today’s post is about..
So, I was about 11 years old when I first heard the phrase, “Absence makes the heart grow fonder”, and I didn’t read much into it then. I learned that what this phrase basically means is that when you leave someone for some time or someone leaves you for some time or even forever, their absence makes you think about them more; hence, why the heart is growing fonder because you’re realizing how much you like them more and all. Honestly, I truly can’t believe I was given this lie and I gladly swallowed it down my throat.
Okay okay, I know I’m exaggerating when I call it a lie because it’s not totally false; it just seems like something your parents will tell you because they don’t want you to find the whole truth about something. I guess we can call it a form of deceit on its own. Yeah sadly..
As I grew up and moved away from my “friends” in Nigeria, that phrase became very questionable. This is because absence didn’t make my own heart grow fonder, it made it more distant. Yes, really!
After being away from the people I grew up with since I was very little for a little over 3 years, I realized that my heart didn’t grow any fonder, it actually grew distant. Our relationship was breaking apart piece by piece because of that absence and now, when I have conversations with this people, it feels like we are strangers to each other. I don’t know, maybe it’s the type of person that I am that’s causing my own absence to cause distance.
I feel like I’ve grown into this type of person that loves to be alone and maybe just maybe, this is what is making my heart grow distant. Let’s be clear, this isn’t just me with one person, it’s me with every person I left in Nigeria; our relationship has just been severed brutally and it just keeps me up at night wondering why as kids, we are never really told the whole truth of the matter.
Maybe our parents and teachers are scared of us being hurt as kids and that’s why they feed us with “absence makes the heart grow fonder”; they don’t want us to be exposed to the harsh reality of the world from a young age. Honestly, I get it but the thing is that whatever we don’t learn when we are little just comes back in the future when we are all grown up and then we have to figure it out ourselves and maybe with the help of other people. My point is just that, kids shouldn’t be lied to, don’t tell them that absence will make the heart grow fonder and fail to tell them that absence can also make the heart grow distant.
I know you can be reading this post and be shaking your head, disagreeing so strongly but just remember that it’s all perspective. I view the world more deeply(you should know this if you didn’t already know).
Anyway, that’s all for today! Don’t forget to leave a comment if you want to share your thoughts and opinions; also leave a comment if you have any questions. Bye y’all🤗
Hi y’all! How’re you doing?? I hope you’re taking care of yourself?? I hope you’re keeping up with your mental health?? I hope you’re being kind to your health and to yourself??
Hmm. For me, too much has being going on. It’s a lot of crazyyyy stuff but like I always say, God is in control and He’s definitely not asleep. Today’s post is a very real post and I wrote this from the depths of the little left of my heart. Let’s just dive in!
Africa is going through so much right now. Well, not exactly every African country but a lot of countries are really going through it right now. So many people are dying and they are being treated like dangerous and wild animals. People are being shot like animals being shot for sport. People are leaving their homes and they are not returning home. People are saying farewell not knowing that it’s their last. People are crying and they are bleeding, metaphorically and literally.
There are thousands of very brave, strong, and courageous people going out to protest. There are people risking their lives to contribute to the betterment of Africa. There are also people doing their bit on social media, trying to spread awareness and use their voices to spread the news, to loud our cries. Everyone is doing their part in this fight to improve the quality of life of Africans.
Honestly, it’s very infuriating that we are still fighting for our lives and our sanity in the year, 2020. More than 30 years after the independence of many African countries. Now, I better understand when people say that, “it’s not how far but how well”.
The whole craze of the way the government rules in most African countries is already being shown all over the world. With so many people from international countries lending their voices and their platforms to this fight. We all now realize that it’s no longer Africans’ fight but it’s all our fight. Really, what joy exactly is living if more than half of humanity are struggling to survive?? What joy is life if more than half of humanity don’t know what it’s like to live a life where you don’t have to keep a gun or a weapon by your bedside every night?
Like every wise person has said, “we can achieve so much more when we work together”. For everyone who is not African, this is now your fight. You really shouldn’t sit comfortably in your homes knowing that your brothers and sisters that life has given you are dying. Though, you have to keep up with your mental health and take breaks when you need, you can’t keep being mute. Please you can’t! If you keep being mute, what people would you have when you need to show diversity? What people would you use to prove that you’re not racist?? What people would you use to show that you’re nice and that you do charity work a lot?? The reality of most whites or non-Africans is being challenged here and I’m sorry to trigger you but we have to accept the harshness of reality.
We always say that life is very unfair but should you really say that when life has become a matter of living or dying. Get up and talk! Speak and let our voices rise up to the heavens. Let our hearts sing to the heavens. Let’s stop whimpering and let’s start screaming. Let’s amplify our voices because together we are one. Let our prayers not cease and let it continue to ring out loud.
I think it’s very important for me to mention here, that we shouldn’t be attacking people for not talking about everything that’s going on(on that note, I really hope no one feels attacked by the previous paragraphs, it’s all unfiltered truth). For some people, all of these stuff is really really hard to process and some other people also have some sort of trauma they’re already dealing with. We don’t know everyone’s situation, so please be very kind with your words and actions. All I’m saying is that if you can, use your voice because every voice is needed.
Moving on, the harshness of our reality extends to the acceptance of people who are very care-free about the deaths of thousands. Those who turn blind eye to the sore image of a person’s brain scattered all over the floor. Those who are in positions of power sitting comfortably in their homes watching the havoc they caused by themselves. Those who insist that this fight is not their fight. Yes, it is very angering and frustrating but we need to accept it. We need not close our eyes, close our hearts, and let curses ring from the bottom of our souls. We need not take judgment into our own hands. Instead, let God do the judging and punishing, let’s just sit back and watch the evil ones get repaid with the actions they took stupidly. Let’s keep talking but close our eyes and walk past the evil and corrupt ones. Let’s keep being peaceful in our fight and let’s work on amplifying our voices.
This is the beginning of a new era. Although it’s heartbreaking that many heroes had to surrender their lives for this fight, I can smell victory because it’s not far away. Let’s rest for today and get back on our toes tomorrow. Let’s refill ourselves today and let’s get ready to be drained tomorrow. This fight has started because God has a reason for everything. This time, victory is definitely ours.
Lest I forget, mental health is still extremely important. From experience, I know how draining all of this can be. I know how tiring it can be. So please please, even though things aren’t really looking great currently, still pay close attention to your mental health. Also, try to stay away from social media some days because the news on there can be extremely overwhelming. Please make sure that you don’t lose yourself amidst all that’s happening. Please, I beg of you, take care of yourself. Please Please!
A quick prayer shared with me by someone during a prayer meeting I hosted. Father Lord, arise and fight for your people in Jesus name. Amen! Bye y’all 🤗🤗
Hello Hello! How are y’all doing? How’s it going?? For me, I’m just really stressed and tired. Honestly, things aren’t really looking nice right now for me but God is in control. Don’t worry y’all, God’s got me! Anyway, today’s topic is a really big issue that hurts my heart so badly. Let’s just get into it.
Before I start, let me explain the story behind #EndSARS to y’all. The Special Anti-Robbery Squad(SARS) is a unit of the Nigerian Police Force. Over the years, SARS have been committing several acts of corruption and malpractice in Nigeria. Instead of serving as a form of protection to the people, they have been the ones terrorizing the people. They have been unlawfully arresting and detaining young people(youths) because they are wearing some type of expensive jewelry, using iPhones, driving expensive cars, and many more things. They have stolen and extorted money from young people and their family members. They have raped a lot of women. They have also killed a lot of people. All of these crimes and the Nigerian government has refused to do anything.
It’s just so unbelievable, unfathomable, and mind boggling that the people who are in charge of protecting us and keeping us safe have turned to our biggest fears and worst nightmares. According to Google, “ A Police Officer serves to maintain law and order in local areas by protecting members of the public and their property, preventing crime, reducing the fear of crime and improving the quality of life for all citizens”. The police are the people that are supposed to serve as examples to other citizens. They are supposed to maintain law and order but SARS is doing just the opposite of that. They are supposed to be reducing the fear of crime but all they are doing is increasing the fear of crime and even making it so much harder for us to live our lives.
It’s so disturbing that the police who are supposed to make us feel safe are the ones making it hard for us to sleep at night. By the way, in every Nigerian police station you go to, you will see a sign that says, “Police is your friend”. What kind of lie and what sort of deception is this?
However, my own question is thus, “where the heck is the freaking government”?? In Nigeria, people have been protesting for almost a week now and the government is yet to do anything meaningful and helpful. Our government officials are sitting in their offices or houses comfortably watching, with eyes wide open, the chaos and brouhaha going on in the nation that is supposed to be led by them. I really don’t think these people understand what it means to be a leader. If they did understand, they wouldn’t just sit down and be looking at these SARS people and their act of terrorism. This whole thing is just maddening. I’m just so embarrassed for and ashamed of these so-called leaders. I am also very disappointed because when these people were campaigning to be in these positions they are in now, they wrapped their incompetence in fine looking propaganda. Incompetence, care-free attitude and negligence at its peak!!
Also, apart from the incompetence of these people in power, they are also so freaking power drunk, especially these SARS people. I mean, you give a bunch of people guns and uniforms and tell them they have power and the next thing they do is let the power get into their heads. This power thing is riding them and the most painful part of it is that they have these huge amount of power, and yet they keep misusing it. The SARS have been given power by the Nigerian government and instead of them to serve as role models and examples for other citizens, they let the power get into their heads and they became power drunk. Honestly, same goes for the other people in the government. They get into the government and they are blinded by how much power they have and they forget why they are in power or why they have the power in the first place.
Our people are dying. They are not safe. Our nation is not at peace. Our government has failed us. May Almighty God in his infinite mercy show His face and help us through it all. Amen!
In all, please if you’re going out to protest, be very careful because they are even killing protesters now. Sigh! Please use your voice if you can to speak on this topic however way you can. Also, my heart is with everyone in Nigeria. Please take heart, the God we serve is aware of our situation and He will never ever abandon us. I also pray that God will enter our leaders’s minds and take control over Nigeria. Amen!