Stuck(a poem)

I’m stuck in this maze called my mind

I keep going back and forth

And it’s all in my head

I’m unstable and mazed

Struck by the disorientation of my mind

Unfazed by the world outside of me

I’m stuck in this body

That I don’t even recognize

Everyday, I have to knock and wait for an answer

Before I get in

I’m stuck in this life that I live

Unable to transform into the persona I admire

I’m constantly ran over by the chaos of reality

Still can’t fathom how I even got here

I’m stuck; stuck in all I am


Hii people! How’re you doing?! I really hope you’re trying to keep your head up high no matter what’s happening in your life. Remember, I’m always rooting for you🤍🤍

Today is Saturday, and a new post was supposed to be up yesterday. I had something planned for yesterday but I didn’t put it out because of the doubt that constantly lingers in my mind. Anyway, here’s a poem for today.

I’ll talk to you guys later. Bye🙃🙃

I came across this picture on an Instagram page @relationships.usa. I just really liked it😛

Love you all always🤗🤗

Answering some of my frequently-asked questions

Starting today’s post with this🤗
Not just today, every single day!!

Hii people! HAPPY NEW YEAR!! I really hope we are all doing great! If you are not, please try to keep your head up, and don’t forget that you always have God by your side. God deeply cares for you and He is aware of everything that you are going through, so you will be fine. Yes, you will because God says so!🤍🤍

So, how am I? I am pretty good. School has resumed, and I am just so glad that the school year is going fast, and that it’s almost the end of the school year. Exciting stuff!! Also, I am working on my podcast rebranding; when it’s done, I will come here and give y’all all the gist! I have been working on myself, and my relationship with God. You know, it’s a new year, it’s a fresh start for me. That’s about it!

Ohkayyyy. Let’s dive in to today’s post! Shall we..

Today, I am going to be answering my most frequently-asked questions. This is lowkey exciting because a lot of people just ask me the same questions over and over, and also, it’s a way for me to semi-introduce myself to the new followers here. Welcome welcome, by the way! Just keep reading😊😊

1.)What is your real name?

This seems like some top secret but it’s not. My real name is Barakat. I have usually hidden it and go by different names for different reasons but that is over(hopefully i don’t regret it). So, there you go, I am Barakat. I also go by Bee and Precious. Bee is just like a nickname because a lot of people don’t know how to pronounce Barakat and Precious is my Christian name.

2) Do you even know what Barakat means?

YESS, of course, I know what Barakat means! Barakat is a Muslim name, and it means blessing.

I know now, you are probably wondering why I have a Muslim name if I am Christian. Yeaa, this is because my dad is Muslim, while my mum is Christian. Yep, that’s it, no long story.

3) I thought you were a Muslim, so why do you always talk about Jesus Christ?

Mann, if I saved a penny every time someone has said this to me, I think I will be tens of dollars richer. People always think I am Muslim because of my name. Yes, I have a Muslim name, and I already explained why above. Even though I have a Muslim name, I am Christian and will forever be. Yepp:)

4)Why did you move from Nigeria?

I moved because I wanted to. Simple as that. Infact, *drops MIC*😛😛

5)Why do you love Nigeria so much?

I love it so much because it is my home country, and it’s where I spent most of my life before now. Even though Nigeria has its faults, it is still my home country, and we all have to understand that every country has its faults. We just have to keep praying for every country! By God’s grace, things will be better soon for Nigeria, and everywhere. Amen!

6) Why don’t you want to have a boyfriend now?

This is a funny question, and it’s my second most-asked question. It’s simply because I am not interested in that now because I have other things that are much more important for my life. Also, as a Christian, I cannot and will not just date for fun. I will only date when God says it is time, and when I am ready for that kind of commitment. That’s it!

7) Why don’t you make friends?

See, when it’s supposed to happen, it will happen. Please you guys should stop stressing me! Besides, I do have people I talk to, so yeahh.

That’s about it! Please y’all should stop asking me these questions over and over! My tired is tired😩Anyway, thank you for reading!

If you have any thoughts or questions, you can leave a comment. I will catch you guys later, and HAPPY NEW YEAR, once again!

One of my fave pictures now! bye people!

Rooting for you all always, even on days when we fail to believe in ourselves, and understand that WE CAN DO IT!🤗🤗

Disconnected..(a poem)

I home disconnection

I embody disorientation

I breathe the air of multiple souls in one body

I transform and become what I don’t know

I slip and slip until I can no longer be seen

I crave space and loneliness

I am fascinated by the energy of the souls living in me

I am who I am at the moment

An imagination of my disconnection


Hii y’all! How’re you?? I really hope you are doing okay!🤍🤍

I just wanted to write something. So here’s what I came up with. Happy Holidays y’all 💃🏽💃🏽

byee🙃🤪

Love you all always 🤗🤗

I feel like..(a poem)

I feel like a museum, a collection of everything I’ve seen and heard

I feel like a book filled with so many stories from the people I’ve encountered

I feel like a journal that collects everything and anything

I don’t feel like a singular person who knows what they’re doing

I don’t know what and who I’m supposed to be

I feel like there’s multiple people in one body

Souls tied together, minds all drawn apart, all in one body

My body, the body of so many people, personalities, and lives from all over.


Hii! I just felt like writing something and posting it. So here’s another poem from me!

Bye y’all 🙃🙃

Love you all always 🤗🤗

How to deal with your reading slump..

Hi y’all! How’re you all doing? I really really hope we are all doing fine! If you’re not, please try your best to keep your head up! I’m rooting for you and I know that you’ll be okay because God says so.🤍🤍

So how am I doing? I am actually doing so much better than last time(I am soo stuck, tired, and exhausted..| Midnight struggles..) I’ve been pretty busy with school, and different extracurricular activities. I’ve also been so busy with different assignments and so many other things. In all, I am pretty good, all thanks to God:)

Okay, let’s move onn..

What’s a reading slump?

According to bookriot.com, a reading slump is a time when no story seems to hold your attention, and you simply are not motivated to read.

I honestly think that a lot of people go through reading slumps. I know that sometimes, it’s so hard for us to admit it because we don’t want people to see or know that we are struggling or for whatever reason.

If you really read a lot, you have probably been in a reading slump a couple of times. Or maybe you’re in one right now.

The thing is that, being in a reading slump is not something so bad, and it doesn’t make you a lazy person. Sometimes, things just happen and it can happen for whatever reason, and we might not even understand why it happens. It’s okay, I promise. I’ve been there a couple of times and I’ve been able to collect a couple of tips on how to deal with your reading slump. Keep reading!

Tips on how to deal with your reading slump..

1) The first thing is to not beat yourself up because of this. Like I said earlier, sometimes it happens! So, you really need to accept it. You know, you might even need that break; so don’t be mad at yourself for feeling unmotivated to read. Just let yourself take that break for a while and try to relax!

2) Use that time to do other things that you like to do. You probably have been reading so much that you’ve stopped doing other things that you love, so take this time to do other things that make you happy. Don’t spend your reading slump crying yourself to sleep and lamenting, instead use it to your own benefit. Do those other things you love and you can even try new activities. Try it!

3)Find other reading methods and try to incorporate fun into reading. There are some of us who only read physical books. This is not bad but what’s the fun in only reading physical books when you can read so many other ways. If you’re experiencing a reading slump, you should try reading e-books or even listening to audiobooks.

When I was recently experiencing a very bad reading slump, what I did to help me get better was to find other ways to read. I tried reading e-books and this helped me to slowly climb out of my reading slump. I incorporated fun into my reading by reading in other ways. So, if you’re experiencing a reading slump, you should really try reading in other ways than you’re used to and this might just be what helps you to get out of your reading slump.

4) Another thing you can do is switch genres. You should read books from genres you’re not used to. Maybe you just need to get away from reading that genre you’re always reading. You can switch to anthologies, YA fiction, comic books, and so many others. Just read something new, and it might just be what you really need!

5)Also, you can ask for help! Ask for help from other readers, you can read together, or even join a book club. Don’t hesitate and don’t feel ashamed to ask other readers for help. Most of us experience reading slumps, so reach out to other people because they probably have gone through what you are going through with your reading slump. Don’t let your fear get to you, ask for help!

I really think that we all need to realize that reading slumps happen to a lot of people all over the world. So if you’re experiencing it, you’re not alone! I’ve been there plenty of times! It’s not something to be ashamed of, you need to embrace it, and you’ll be fine!

That’s all for today y’all! Thank you so much for reading. If you have any questions or thoughts or any other ideas on how to deal with reading slumps, then leave a comment. Also, if you’ve experienced a reading slump or are experiencing one right now, leave a comment and tell me about it. Bye y’all 🙃🙃

This is something I just wanted to share with you all!

Love you all always, even on days when you feel completely unloved and alone in the world🤗🤗

Meaningless..(a poem)

Rustic lines, faded blue

Yellow skies, bloody red

Unforgivable pain, dirty souls

Dried up tears, crushed bones

Painful love, intelligent fools

Forgotten memories, daring scares

Temporary rhythm, permanent scars

Tattered skin, noisy melody

Unreasonable reasons, truthful lies

Paradoxical meanings, quiet noise


Hi y’all! How’re you doing? I hope you’re doing okay?!🤍🤍

Sometimes I write jargons just like today’s poem. Words just came out from nowhere through my hand onto this blogpost.. Also, I’ve been very lazy, hence why I’ve just been posting poems but I’ll be back on my grind very soon!

This image just seemed nice and it exuded peace. bye y’all 🙃🙃

Love you all always, even on days when my writing feels like jargons🤗🤗

Some days..(a poem)

Some days, I feel so great

And some days, I am a big mess

Like a hopeless person just waiting to be hit by a car

Or like a lifeless little doll

The voices in my head are so loud

And I feel like I can see the unseen

I feel numb to all the pain yet a part of me still shudders at every moment

I can’t even cry because I am numb

And resistant to those tears because my eyes are all dried up from the nights I’ve spent crying instead of sleeping

And on those days when I am a mess,

I can’t move or be or even live

I can only try to exist.


Hi everyone! How’re you? I really hope you’re doing fine 🤍🙂

Here’s a picture I took and edited myself! Bye y’all 🙃

Love you all always, even on days when I don’t feel so good🤗🤗