Poetry(a poem)

Poetry is more than ink on paper

It’s more than complex words and simple meanings

It’s the wool that wraps around me in the cold

It’s the tears that warm up my eyes in the dark

It’s the smile I hold back when I laugh

It’s the love that doesn’t feel draining

It’s the socks that keep my feet warm at night

It’s the bitterness in the coffee that I punish myself with

It’s the eyes that look back at me in the mirror

It’s the voices that seem deafening in my head

It’s the choices that I have to make

It’s the feelings I don’t want to feel

It’s the song that keeps playing over and over in my head

It’s the monsters that I feel under my bed

It’s the thoughts I don’t want to think

It’s the anger that I suppress down with a laugh

It’s the sadness I wash away with wine

It’s the eye bags that never leave my face

It’s the stripes that mark my body

It’s the scars imprinted in my being

It’s the folds that form when I’m me

It’s the good and bad and all in between

It’s the escape that reality is afraid of

Surely, poetry is more than ink on paper

It’s more than complex words and simple meanings.


Hi! How’re you?? I really hope you’re doing alright!

I just wanted to write something and that’s it. Thanks for reading..

byee y’all

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that you’re strong, beautiful, talented, and all the good things in the world.

Maybe I just love YouTube(maybe..)

I started watching YouTube not long ago and it has been very very fun. By watching YouTube and seeing people simply create, I have grown to love the art of creating videos and editing videos.

There is a lot of talent on YouTube and it is mind blowing. It is so beautiful to see people document different things that excite them, and also share those things out to the world. YouTube just makes me really smile and it has become a source of great motivation to me(surprisingly, if I am being honest).

Earlier before I got so into YouTube, I didn’t think of creating videos and editing them but now, I really just want to do that. I have “fallen in love” with the art of making videos, filmmaking(if I want to be bold). I don’t know how to explain it, to be honest; YouTube has just captured my heart.

I feel like this is because it’s really only on YouTube where you see people post long videos, documenting different things. YouTube is fun, and that’s basically what this blogpost is about.

Due to my new love for making and creating videos, I “recently” got my own YouTube channel. It’s been really great, honestly. Seeing the videos that I made and edited on such a popular platform where anybody and everybody has access to it just makes me feel proud of myself a little. I feel like I am growing in a way and just really learning more about the things that really make me smile.

So yeah, I’ve got my blog, my podcast, and now my YouTube. It’s a little scary putting myself out there on the Internet but I love that I am going after things that I really want to do(for now). It makes me feel “fulfilled” in a way:)


I had a totally different post planned for today but I decided to share with you guys, my love for YouTube instead. Yeah, it’s fun-this is the only word I can literally think of!

Anyway, hi everyone!! How are you doing? I really hope you are doing alright! If you are not, please don’t stop trusting in God no matter what! God has got you forever, so you will be fine! Keep trying to stay positive:)

For me, I am doing better now. I have been busy with school and just preparing for different exams, and things to do for the summer. So yep, I am living:))


Thank you for reading this post today! I will see you in my next blogpost:))

Photo by Burst on Pexels.com

I searched for a New York photo and this came up; so enjoy this beautiful photo of New York.

byee!!

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that you should always do the right thing, not the easy thing!!

Stuck(a poem)

I’m stuck in this maze called my mind

I keep going back and forth

And it’s all in my head

I’m unstable and mazed

Struck by the disorientation of my mind

Unfazed by the world outside of me

I’m stuck in this body

That I don’t even recognize

Everyday, I have to knock and wait for an answer

Before I get in

I’m stuck in this life that I live

Unable to transform into the persona I admire

I’m constantly ran over by the chaos of reality

Still can’t fathom how I even got here

I’m stuck; stuck in all I am


Hii people! How’re you doing?! I really hope you’re trying to keep your head up high no matter what’s happening in your life. Remember, I’m always rooting for you🤍🤍

Today is Saturday, and a new post was supposed to be up yesterday. I had something planned for yesterday but I didn’t put it out because of the doubt that constantly lingers in my mind. Anyway, here’s a poem for today.

I’ll talk to you guys later. Bye🙃🙃

I came across this picture on an Instagram page @relationships.usa. I just really liked it😛

Love you all always🤗🤗

The end of a great time; the beginning of a GREATER time.

Hii people! What’s up y’all! I really hope everyone is doing okay. If you are not, I really hope you are trying your best to keep your head up and I also hope that you have not forgotten that you have God by your side and you will always have Him by your side. I am always rooting for you:)

So, how am I doing? I have been pretty occupied with a lot of things. I am trying to finish all my school work before we get back to school. I am trying to reach out to a lot of people just to see how they are doing and to check on them. I have also been trying to plan for 2021, and get myself together and start moving and doing things that I need to do. Yeah, that is about it.

Let’s move onn

This is my last post of the year 2020, and I am really excited and all smiley. It has been an amazing year for this blog and I am just so grateful to God, and to you people who are always reading my posts, and those of you who follow this blog. Y’all don’t know how much your support has really impacted me. It has kept me going, and has made me try harder, and put in my best for this blog. Therefore, I am extremely grateful to and for all of you!

When I put out my first blogpost at the end of June, I did not really have a plan, and I didn’t really know what I was doing. I just knew that I am very passionate about writing, and I really wanted to impact lives with my writing; I hope I did so this year. Having a blog was not something I was very familiar with but God has been so good to me, regarding this blog.

I have been writing different things here, and every single time, I am still so surprised when I see that people are reading my posts, liking, commenting, and even following my blog. I do not and will never take it all for granted because you have all really made me smile this year. It is really amazing and special to me when people support me and I just thank God that people appreciate my writing, and support me. I honestly don’t know why each individual that reads my posts reads it, but I hope my stories, and my writings have brought a smile to your face, or even just impacted you in a very positive way. I really do hope so.

So about 2021, I don’t know what direction my writing is going to go but I am very positive that greater things are coming. I am also very positive that God is going to do greater and much more amazing things through this blog. This is just the beginning y’all! I am so excited for stories that I am going to tell, and lives that are going to be positively impacted through this blog.

One thing for 2021 though, I hope to be much more consistent with writing, especially on this blog. Although, I love writing, and sharing my stories, sometimes I just get into a funk or get really dissociated that I stop writing. I hope I get better, and become a much more better writer and even though, I still find it very difficult to call myself a writer, a blogger, and a poet, I pray that I don’t stop writing. I know that God has my back always, so I am very positive of the things to come.

Before I publish this post, I want to talk to you guys..

I know that 2020 was not the best year, and I know that we all dealt with so much this year that no one probably knows about. I know we all fought silent battles, and probably fell so many times. Yes, we went through so much but I just want to say that don’t let it stop you from flying. Don’t let your problems, and issues drag you down and bury you deep that you lose yourself. Try and fight for yourself! Try to keep your head up and keep reaching for the sky. Try and keep going for yourself. Most importantly, try and rest, take a break when you know that you really need it.

God is never leaving your side, so be rest assured that you will be okay. I know sometimes, it feels like we are going to die with our problems but I’m here now telling you that no, that is not going to happen. YOU WILL BE OK! I know this because God says so! So, keep moving and know that Barakat(me) is always here rooting for you and will always be here rooting for you.

Photo by Prateek Katyal on Pexels.com (You definitely got this);)

Love you all always, and thank you for everything!

Disconnected..(a poem)

I home disconnection

I embody disorientation

I breathe the air of multiple souls in one body

I transform and become what I don’t know

I slip and slip until I can no longer be seen

I crave space and loneliness

I am fascinated by the energy of the souls living in me

I am who I am at the moment

An imagination of my disconnection


Hii y’all! How’re you?? I really hope you are doing okay!🤍🤍

I just wanted to write something. So here’s what I came up with. Happy Holidays y’all 💃🏽💃🏽

byee🙃🤪

Love you all always 🤗🤗

I feel like..(a poem)

I feel like a museum, a collection of everything I’ve seen and heard

I feel like a book filled with so many stories from the people I’ve encountered

I feel like a journal that collects everything and anything

I don’t feel like a singular person who knows what they’re doing

I don’t know what and who I’m supposed to be

I feel like there’s multiple people in one body

Souls tied together, minds all drawn apart, all in one body

My body, the body of so many people, personalities, and lives from all over.


Hii! I just felt like writing something and posting it. So here’s another poem from me!

Bye y’all 🙃🙃

Love you all always 🤗🤗

The feeling of not knowing what to feel and the feeling of isolation altogether..

Hi y’all! Happy Thanksgiving! How are you doing? I really hope you are still fighting for yourself and you are trying your best to keep your head high up despite whatever you are currently going through in life. Remember, I am always here for you to talk to:)

So, how am I doing? I honestly don’t know how I feel; I know I am just living. Although, there is this part of me that’s bursting with positive energy and the feeling of excitement all because of God’s goodness. Other than that, I honestly just don’t know how I feel and what to feel; I kinda feel just so blank. Don’t worry, I am okay though, I promise. I’ll always be okay:)

Alright, let’s move on..

Okay, so I just finished watching a show(don’t ask me for the name). It was a rude awakening really and I think it’s the reason why I suddenly feel so blank. You know, my head is full of just so many thoughts, things I want to say but that feeling of blankness is still so obvious and it’s just there. This show just really moved me and I feel stuck in the reality that the show has pushed me into.

I am not going to explain what the show is about here, I am just going to tell y’all some things that the show told me and some things I got from it. Maybe, I’ll also be able to explain why I am in this state of not knowing what to feel(just maybe).

One big thing that the show speaks on is isolation. I truly believe that when most of us hear about isolation, we think of cases of people like Genie but isolation doesn’t have to be severe for it to be present. I feel like a lot of people in this world, although they have friends, and families, are suffering from their own type of isolation. Somehow, most of us just don’t feel like we have people around us and we just feel so isolated from the world around us. We can see the people around us but we can’t feel them. We feel stuck in this big bubble that can’t fit anyone else except us. We feel lost despite being surrounded by a crowd. We feel faraway, disconnected from the reality of people around us. We can’t seem to acknowledge this people who are around us. We truly feel stuck in our own little bubble that no one else can get into or maybe no one has tried to get into..

For some of us, it might seem like we are very big extroverts but the truth is that we really don’t know how to properly interact with the world around us. We feel away(gone) and we feel like no one is looking after us. We feel like no one can truly see us; we feel like people are around but are not truly there with us. So Yes, the feeling of isolation is real and many of us experience it, although most of us don’t acknowledge it, for whatever reason. Most of us do feel like this little unwanted pea amongst a field of big crops. We feel left out and not seen. You know, sometimes our feeling of isolation can be seen or perceived as a product of our imagination but you honestly can’t blame people(well, the ones who think like that) because sometimes we might just be too shallow to see beneath the surface. It’s sad but it’s reality..

Another thing that the show speaks on is not knowing how we feel; not being able to express our emotions. I think this is exactly what I am feeling right now; maybe I unconsciously got too deeply affected by the show. Anyway, the feeling of not knowing what we feel and how we feel is truly real.

Sometimes, we just don’t know.. You know, I feel like this can be caused by so many things. Maybe you’ve felt too much and now this feeling of blankness has been cast on you. Maybe you’ve been hurt too much and now your mind is just blank. Or maybe you just cannot explain it, I don’t know honestly because I have not got all the answers. All I just know is that this can truly happen to you and it doesn’t mean you are weird, you are just human; I think by now we should all have realized that being human is very complex.

If you are experiencing this feeling right now, I honestly don’t know what to tell you because I am also feeling it. I’ll just say that don’t let it stop you from moving. Don’t let it tie you up, you can still keep going but if you feel like you truly need a break, then go for it. Keep moving but realize that you are allowed to stop for a break sometimes. Don’t worry, you’ve got this! We are all going to be fine..

A quick photo break because I feel like it truly embodies today’s post!
Photo by Pat Whelen on Pexels.com

You know, when I started writing this post, I didn’t know what direction it was going to go but if you are reading this, that means you read it to the end. I hope you got what I was trying to say because you know, sometimes my thoughts are all jumbled up..

Anyway, don’t forget to keep fighting and I promise you because God is a good God, you’ll be okay. You can leave a comment if you relate or if you have any thoughts or questions. I really love reading comments and replying to them. God bless! Bye y’all:)

This is a picture I took and edited that I just want y’all to see🙃😌
p.s.it’s just an ordinary watch oo

Love you all always🤗🤗