Meaningless..(a poem)

Rustic lines, faded blue

Yellow skies, bloody red

Unforgivable pain, dirty souls

Dried up tears, crushed bones

Painful love, intelligent fools

Forgotten memories, daring scares

Temporary rhythm, permanent scars

Tattered skin, noisy melody

Unreasonable reasons, truthful lies

Paradoxical meanings, quiet noise


Hi y’all! How’re you doing? I hope you’re doing okay?!🤍🤍

Sometimes I write jargons just like today’s poem. Words just came out from nowhere through my hand onto this blogpost.. Also, I’ve been very lazy, hence why I’ve just been posting poems but I’ll be back on my grind very soon!

This image just seemed nice and it exuded peace. bye y’all 🙃🙃

Love you all always, even on days when my writing feels like jargons🤗🤗

Some days..(a poem)

Some days, I feel so great

And some days, I am a big mess

Like a hopeless person just waiting to be hit by a car

Or like a lifeless little doll

The voices in my head are so loud

And I feel like I can see the unseen

I feel numb to all the pain yet a part of me still shudders at every moment

I can’t even cry because I am numb

And resistant to those tears because my eyes are all dried up from the nights I’ve spent crying instead of sleeping

And on those days when I am a mess,

I can’t move or be or even live

I can only try to exist.


Hi everyone! How’re you? I really hope you’re doing fine 🤍🙂

Here’s a picture I took and edited myself! Bye y’all 🙃

Love you all always, even on days when I don’t feel so good🤗🤗

I am weird..(a poem)

Sometimes, I find it so difficult to sleep

And it’s not insomnia,

It’s those voices that are always so loud in my head

Those voices that tell me different things

That I know are not true but a part of me strongly wants to believe

I am so confused and always in a state of disorientation,

I am so lost and always feeling in my heart, adriftness

Sometimes, I also feel very strange living in this turbulent world;

And I sometime wonder if I’m truly human

Yes, I know I’m pretty weird but it’s just that I cannot control it

I am trying; trying so hard but

My hands are tied and my eyes are covered

I am so lost in this state of bewilderment..


Hii!! Welcome to December! How’re you doing? I really hope you’re all doing okay🙂🤍

I thought to start December off with a poem.. Leave a comment and let me know your interpretations of this poem.

This photo just seemed so nice.. bye y’all 🙃

Love you all always 🤗🤗

The feeling of not knowing what to feel and the feeling of isolation altogether..

Hi y’all! Happy Thanksgiving! How are you doing? I really hope you are still fighting for yourself and you are trying your best to keep your head high up despite whatever you are currently going through in life. Remember, I am always here for you to talk to:)

So, how am I doing? I honestly don’t know how I feel; I know I am just living. Although, there is this part of me that’s bursting with positive energy and the feeling of excitement all because of God’s goodness. Other than that, I honestly just don’t know how I feel and what to feel; I kinda feel just so blank. Don’t worry, I am okay though, I promise. I’ll always be okay:)

Alright, let’s move on..

Okay, so I just finished watching a show(don’t ask me for the name). It was a rude awakening really and I think it’s the reason why I suddenly feel so blank. You know, my head is full of just so many thoughts, things I want to say but that feeling of blankness is still so obvious and it’s just there. This show just really moved me and I feel stuck in the reality that the show has pushed me into.

I am not going to explain what the show is about here, I am just going to tell y’all some things that the show told me and some things I got from it. Maybe, I’ll also be able to explain why I am in this state of not knowing what to feel(just maybe).

One big thing that the show speaks on is isolation. I truly believe that when most of us hear about isolation, we think of cases of people like Genie but isolation doesn’t have to be severe for it to be present. I feel like a lot of people in this world, although they have friends, and families, are suffering from their own type of isolation. Somehow, most of us just don’t feel like we have people around us and we just feel so isolated from the world around us. We can see the people around us but we can’t feel them. We feel stuck in this big bubble that can’t fit anyone else except us. We feel lost despite being surrounded by a crowd. We feel faraway, disconnected from the reality of people around us. We can’t seem to acknowledge this people who are around us. We truly feel stuck in our own little bubble that no one else can get into or maybe no one has tried to get into..

For some of us, it might seem like we are very big extroverts but the truth is that we really don’t know how to properly interact with the world around us. We feel away(gone) and we feel like no one is looking after us. We feel like no one can truly see us; we feel like people are around but are not truly there with us. So Yes, the feeling of isolation is real and many of us experience it, although most of us don’t acknowledge it, for whatever reason. Most of us do feel like this little unwanted pea amongst a field of big crops. We feel left out and not seen. You know, sometimes our feeling of isolation can be seen or perceived as a product of our imagination but you honestly can’t blame people(well, the ones who think like that) because sometimes we might just be too shallow to see beneath the surface. It’s sad but it’s reality..

Another thing that the show speaks on is not knowing how we feel; not being able to express our emotions. I think this is exactly what I am feeling right now; maybe I unconsciously got too deeply affected by the show. Anyway, the feeling of not knowing what we feel and how we feel is truly real.

Sometimes, we just don’t know.. You know, I feel like this can be caused by so many things. Maybe you’ve felt too much and now this feeling of blankness has been cast on you. Maybe you’ve been hurt too much and now your mind is just blank. Or maybe you just cannot explain it, I don’t know honestly because I have not got all the answers. All I just know is that this can truly happen to you and it doesn’t mean you are weird, you are just human; I think by now we should all have realized that being human is very complex.

If you are experiencing this feeling right now, I honestly don’t know what to tell you because I am also feeling it. I’ll just say that don’t let it stop you from moving. Don’t let it tie you up, you can still keep going but if you feel like you truly need a break, then go for it. Keep moving but realize that you are allowed to stop for a break sometimes. Don’t worry, you’ve got this! We are all going to be fine..

A quick photo break because I feel like it truly embodies today’s post!
Photo by Pat Whelen on Pexels.com

You know, when I started writing this post, I didn’t know what direction it was going to go but if you are reading this, that means you read it to the end. I hope you got what I was trying to say because you know, sometimes my thoughts are all jumbled up..

Anyway, don’t forget to keep fighting and I promise you because God is a good God, you’ll be okay. You can leave a comment if you relate or if you have any thoughts or questions. I really love reading comments and replying to them. God bless! Bye y’all:)

This is a picture I took and edited that I just want y’all to see🙃😌
p.s.it’s just an ordinary watch oo

Love you all always🤗🤗

These blurred lines..(a poem)

Even after washing and rinsing this thing I call a face,

My eyes still don’t see the clarity I want them to see

The lines are not straight and my head aches

I’m not used to uncertainty or this feeling of not knowing what’s next

After cleaning my glasses and wearing them over and over again

My eyes still don’t see the lucidity I want them to see

And I’m too tired to keep holding on if all I’m going to see are blurred lines

My strength is fading off day by day like the blurriness of those lines

All I can now see are faded strength, dwindled vision, and lest I forget, blurred lines..


Hi y’all, I’m going to start sharing my poems on here as well.. I hope you’re well🙃🤍 Bye!

I just found this random photo on the free WordPress photo library. I think it somewhat embodies what this poem means..

Love you all always 🤗🤗

If death is inevitable, then why are we so scared of it??..

Hi people! How’re you?! I really hope you’re taking care of yourself and you’re being kind to yourself despite whatever you’re going through in your life. I really hope so..

So, how’s Bee doing? She’s fine. She’s still so busy with school and some different extracurricular activities. Despite it all, God is still taking care of her and He’s still being so good to her; so she’s thriving.

Okay, okay, let’s start with today’s post already!

First let me define inevitable for you. According to the Oxford Dictionary, inevitable means “certain to happen; unavoidable.” I think this is pretty clear, right..

So, death is unavoidable. We cannot avoid death because at some point in our lives, we will die. We would leave Earth and we will be gone away from here.

The question now is that if death cannot be avoided, then why are we so so scared of it??

I really think that we humans put so much effort into building our lives here on Earth, that the topic of death becomes noise to our ears that hate noise. We spend our whole life chasing the bag and trying to build a good life for ourselves here on Earth. Due to the amount of time we use to chase after a good life, we don’t want our efforts to be wasted. We don’t want to just disappear from here and leave behind all we have worked so hard for.

Or we can look at it from another perspective. Maybe people are so scared of dying because they are enjoying life too much. We are diehard fans of enjoyment that feel like our lives would be empty without all the fun and good stuff of life. We just don’t want to be gone and miss out on all the fun. We want to remain here on Earth and keep enjoying and keep exploring all that Earth has to offer. We don’t want to leave the good life..

Actually, there’s another perspective.. Maybe we are so scared of dying because of all the relationships that we’ve either built or just gotten roped in here on Earth. We don’t want our loved ones to experience the feeling of loss, and to get bitten by the blood-sucking fangs of pain. We want to stay here forever with the people we love because they just mean too much to us and we also mean too much to them. Yeah, love and relationships are reasonable reasons to not want to get off Earth.

There are honestly too many perspectives to look at it from, and no matter what kind or how many perspectives you look at it from, on Earth, there are people who want to die so bad and people who want to stay alive so bad. I feel like as a society, we don’t acknowledge enough the people of this society who think that getting off Earth is the best thing they can do for themselves. I mean I get it because it’s not so easy to see deep into everyone’s minds and see exactly why they think the way they think. Hmm

Dying is viewed as a sacred topic in our society but when people intentionally die, is it still something sacred?! Death is a topic that we should really address more often because if it was talked about more often, then maybe, just maybe the suicide rate would go down by a lot. A lot of us fail to realize that death can be an option or a choice, and that’s where most of us are faulty. We treat people badly, we say mean stuff to them, we are not kind, we don’t help if we have the ability to, and all of these things just highlight the fact that death can be an option or a choice. Somebody can choose to die because of how people treat them, and this is one of the biggest reasons why some people choose death.

Some people don’t see death as inevitable, they see it as a friend they can call on anytime. I know it’s really really sad but it’s true. So much stuff go on in our heads and minds and these stuff can drive us crazy and make us see death as a choice rather than something that we can’t avoid as humans. It’s a very complex topic..

Okay, so I am afraid of death?? I don’t think I am, really; I believe that anything that happens is God’s will. So, there’s really nothing to be scared of, for me, because I know it can happen anytime whenever God thinks it’s right . Maybe I also feel this way because I don’t have very deep relationships yet but I don’t know.

In all, death is a topic that we, as a society need to acknowledge more but please don’t let death or the fear of death or the thought of death stop you from living your life, and chasing your dreams, of course in a pure and godly manner.

Although, death is inevitable, it is totally understandable and human to be very scared of it.. I just pray that God will continue to keep us all safe and keep protecting us in Jesus name. Amen!

You can leave a comment if you want; maybe you have a question or just a thought. Bye!

I just really like and appreciate this photo..bye people 🙃

Love you all always 🤗🤗

Does absence make the heart grow fonder or does it make the heart more distant??..

Currently I’m a little bit sleepy and so so cold but I had to write this post for today. I didn’t post at all last week and I felt so bad. Yeah.. Don’t worry, I’m writing a post explaining why I didn’t post soon.🙃🤍

Me right now😆

Let’s move on now..

Hi y’all:) How are you doing?? I really hope you are doing fine.. If you’re not, I pray that you get better very soon by God’s grace!

So, for me, how am I doing?? Honestly, I am good, although I have been pretty busy. I’ve been busy with school, and many different activities. I can’t complain though because I chose to do all those activities. Anyway, let’s get into what today’s post is about..

So, I was about 11 years old when I first heard the phrase, “Absence makes the heart grow fonder”, and I didn’t read much into it then. I learned that what this phrase basically means is that when you leave someone for some time or someone leaves you for some time or even forever, their absence makes you think about them more; hence, why the heart is growing fonder because you’re realizing how much you like them more and all. Honestly, I truly can’t believe I was given this lie and I gladly swallowed it down my throat.

Okay okay, I know I’m exaggerating when I call it a lie because it’s not totally false; it just seems like something your parents will tell you because they don’t want you to find the whole truth about something. I guess we can call it a form of deceit on its own. Yeah sadly..

As I grew up and moved away from my “friends” in Nigeria, that phrase became very questionable. This is because absence didn’t make my own heart grow fonder, it made it more distant. Yes, really!

After being away from the people I grew up with since I was very little for a little over 3 years, I realized that my heart didn’t grow any fonder, it actually grew distant. Our relationship was breaking apart piece by piece because of that absence and now, when I have conversations with this people, it feels like we are strangers to each other. I don’t know, maybe it’s the type of person that I am that’s causing my own absence to cause distance.

I feel like I’ve grown into this type of person that loves to be alone and maybe just maybe, this is what is making my heart grow distant. Let’s be clear, this isn’t just me with one person, it’s me with every person I left in Nigeria; our relationship has just been severed brutally and it just keeps me up at night wondering why as kids, we are never really told the whole truth of the matter.

Maybe our parents and teachers are scared of us being hurt as kids and that’s why they feed us with “absence makes the heart grow fonder”; they don’t want us to be exposed to the harsh reality of the world from a young age. Honestly, I get it but the thing is that whatever we don’t learn when we are little just comes back in the future when we are all grown up and then we have to figure it out ourselves and maybe with the help of other people. My point is just that, kids shouldn’t be lied to, don’t tell them that absence will make the heart grow fonder and fail to tell them that absence can also make the heart grow distant.

I know you can be reading this post and be shaking your head, disagreeing so strongly but just remember that it’s all perspective. I view the world more deeply(you should know this if you didn’t already know).

Anyway, that’s all for today! Don’t forget to leave a comment if you want to share your thoughts and opinions; also leave a comment if you have any questions. Bye y’all🤗

I saw this picture and I loved it immediately. I hope it brings you calmness like it did me.

Love you all always🤗🤗