The end of a great time; the beginning of a GREATER time.

Hii people! What’s up y’all! I really hope everyone is doing okay. If you are not, I really hope you are trying your best to keep your head up and I also hope that you have not forgotten that you have God by your side and you will always have Him by your side. I am always rooting for you:)

So, how am I doing? I have been pretty occupied with a lot of things. I am trying to finish all my school work before we get back to school. I am trying to reach out to a lot of people just to see how they are doing and to check on them. I have also been trying to plan for 2021, and get myself together and start moving and doing things that I need to do. Yeah, that is about it.

Let’s move onn

This is my last post of the year 2020, and I am really excited and all smiley. It has been an amazing year for this blog and I am just so grateful to God, and to you people who are always reading my posts, and those of you who follow this blog. Y’all don’t know how much your support has really impacted me. It has kept me going, and has made me try harder, and put in my best for this blog. Therefore, I am extremely grateful to and for all of you!

When I put out my first blogpost at the end of June, I did not really have a plan, and I didn’t really know what I was doing. I just knew that I am very passionate about writing, and I really wanted to impact lives with my writing; I hope I did so this year. Having a blog was not something I was very familiar with but God has been so good to me, regarding this blog.

I have been writing different things here, and every single time, I am still so surprised when I see that people are reading my posts, liking, commenting, and even following my blog. I do not and will never take it all for granted because you have all really made me smile this year. It is really amazing and special to me when people support me and I just thank God that people appreciate my writing, and support me. I honestly don’t know why each individual that reads my posts reads it, but I hope my stories, and my writings have brought a smile to your face, or even just impacted you in a very positive way. I really do hope so.

So about 2021, I don’t know what direction my writing is going to go but I am very positive that greater things are coming. I am also very positive that God is going to do greater and much more amazing things through this blog. This is just the beginning y’all! I am so excited for stories that I am going to tell, and lives that are going to be positively impacted through this blog.

One thing for 2021 though, I hope to be much more consistent with writing, especially on this blog. Although, I love writing, and sharing my stories, sometimes I just get into a funk or get really dissociated that I stop writing. I hope I get better, and become a much more better writer and even though, I still find it very difficult to call myself a writer, a blogger, and a poet, I pray that I don’t stop writing. I know that God has my back always, so I am very positive of the things to come.

Before I publish this post, I want to talk to you guys..

I know that 2020 was not the best year, and I know that we all dealt with so much this year that no one probably knows about. I know we all fought silent battles, and probably fell so many times. Yes, we went through so much but I just want to say that don’t let it stop you from flying. Don’t let your problems, and issues drag you down and bury you deep that you lose yourself. Try and fight for yourself! Try to keep your head up and keep reaching for the sky. Try and keep going for yourself. Most importantly, try and rest, take a break when you know that you really need it.

God is never leaving your side, so be rest assured that you will be okay. I know sometimes, it feels like we are going to die with our problems but I’m here now telling you that no, that is not going to happen. YOU WILL BE OK! I know this because God says so! So, keep moving and know that Barakat(me) is always here rooting for you and will always be here rooting for you.

Photo by Prateek Katyal on Pexels.com (You definitely got this);)

Love you all always, and thank you for everything!

Disconnected..(a poem)

I home disconnection

I embody disorientation

I breathe the air of multiple souls in one body

I transform and become what I don’t know

I slip and slip until I can no longer be seen

I crave space and loneliness

I am fascinated by the energy of the souls living in me

I am who I am at the moment

An imagination of my disconnection


Hii y’all! How’re you?? I really hope you are doing okay!🤍🤍

I just wanted to write something. So here’s what I came up with. Happy Holidays y’all 💃🏽💃🏽

byee🙃🤪

Love you all always 🤗🤗

How to deal with your reading slump..

Hi y’all! How’re you all doing? I really really hope we are all doing fine! If you’re not, please try your best to keep your head up! I’m rooting for you and I know that you’ll be okay because God says so.🤍🤍

So how am I doing? I am actually doing so much better than last time(I am soo stuck, tired, and exhausted..| Midnight struggles..) I’ve been pretty busy with school, and different extracurricular activities. I’ve also been so busy with different assignments and so many other things. In all, I am pretty good, all thanks to God:)

Okay, let’s move onn..

What’s a reading slump?

According to bookriot.com, a reading slump is a time when no story seems to hold your attention, and you simply are not motivated to read.

I honestly think that a lot of people go through reading slumps. I know that sometimes, it’s so hard for us to admit it because we don’t want people to see or know that we are struggling or for whatever reason.

If you really read a lot, you have probably been in a reading slump a couple of times. Or maybe you’re in one right now.

The thing is that, being in a reading slump is not something so bad, and it doesn’t make you a lazy person. Sometimes, things just happen and it can happen for whatever reason, and we might not even understand why it happens. It’s okay, I promise. I’ve been there a couple of times and I’ve been able to collect a couple of tips on how to deal with your reading slump. Keep reading!

Tips on how to deal with your reading slump..

1) The first thing is to not beat yourself up because of this. Like I said earlier, sometimes it happens! So, you really need to accept it. You know, you might even need that break; so don’t be mad at yourself for feeling unmotivated to read. Just let yourself take that break for a while and try to relax!

2) Use that time to do other things that you like to do. You probably have been reading so much that you’ve stopped doing other things that you love, so take this time to do other things that make you happy. Don’t spend your reading slump crying yourself to sleep and lamenting, instead use it to your own benefit. Do those other things you love and you can even try new activities. Try it!

3)Find other reading methods and try to incorporate fun into reading. There are some of us who only read physical books. This is not bad but what’s the fun in only reading physical books when you can read so many other ways. If you’re experiencing a reading slump, you should try reading e-books or even listening to audiobooks.

When I was recently experiencing a very bad reading slump, what I did to help me get better was to find other ways to read. I tried reading e-books and this helped me to slowly climb out of my reading slump. I incorporated fun into my reading by reading in other ways. So, if you’re experiencing a reading slump, you should really try reading in other ways than you’re used to and this might just be what helps you to get out of your reading slump.

4) Another thing you can do is switch genres. You should read books from genres you’re not used to. Maybe you just need to get away from reading that genre you’re always reading. You can switch to anthologies, YA fiction, comic books, and so many others. Just read something new, and it might just be what you really need!

5)Also, you can ask for help! Ask for help from other readers, you can read together, or even join a book club. Don’t hesitate and don’t feel ashamed to ask other readers for help. Most of us experience reading slumps, so reach out to other people because they probably have gone through what you are going through with your reading slump. Don’t let your fear get to you, ask for help!

I really think that we all need to realize that reading slumps happen to a lot of people all over the world. So if you’re experiencing it, you’re not alone! I’ve been there plenty of times! It’s not something to be ashamed of, you need to embrace it, and you’ll be fine!

That’s all for today y’all! Thank you so much for reading. If you have any questions or thoughts or any other ideas on how to deal with reading slumps, then leave a comment. Also, if you’ve experienced a reading slump or are experiencing one right now, leave a comment and tell me about it. Bye y’all 🙃🙃

This is something I just wanted to share with you all!

Love you all always, even on days when you feel completely unloved and alone in the world🤗🤗

Meaningless..(a poem)

Rustic lines, faded blue

Yellow skies, bloody red

Unforgivable pain, dirty souls

Dried up tears, crushed bones

Painful love, intelligent fools

Forgotten memories, daring scares

Temporary rhythm, permanent scars

Tattered skin, noisy melody

Unreasonable reasons, truthful lies

Paradoxical meanings, quiet noise


Hi y’all! How’re you doing? I hope you’re doing okay?!🤍🤍

Sometimes I write jargons just like today’s poem. Words just came out from nowhere through my hand onto this blogpost.. Also, I’ve been very lazy, hence why I’ve just been posting poems but I’ll be back on my grind very soon!

This image just seemed nice and it exuded peace. bye y’all 🙃🙃

Love you all always, even on days when my writing feels like jargons🤗🤗

Some days..(a poem)

Some days, I feel so great

And some days, I am a big mess

Like a hopeless person just waiting to be hit by a car

Or like a lifeless little doll

The voices in my head are so loud

And I feel like I can see the unseen

I feel numb to all the pain yet a part of me still shudders at every moment

I can’t even cry because I am numb

And resistant to those tears because my eyes are all dried up from the nights I’ve spent crying instead of sleeping

And on those days when I am a mess,

I can’t move or be or even live

I can only try to exist.


Hi everyone! How’re you? I really hope you’re doing fine 🤍🙂

Here’s a picture I took and edited myself! Bye y’all 🙃

Love you all always, even on days when I don’t feel so good🤗🤗

The feeling of not knowing what to feel and the feeling of isolation altogether..

Hi y’all! Happy Thanksgiving! How are you doing? I really hope you are still fighting for yourself and you are trying your best to keep your head high up despite whatever you are currently going through in life. Remember, I am always here for you to talk to:)

So, how am I doing? I honestly don’t know how I feel; I know I am just living. Although, there is this part of me that’s bursting with positive energy and the feeling of excitement all because of God’s goodness. Other than that, I honestly just don’t know how I feel and what to feel; I kinda feel just so blank. Don’t worry, I am okay though, I promise. I’ll always be okay:)

Alright, let’s move on..

Okay, so I just finished watching a show(don’t ask me for the name). It was a rude awakening really and I think it’s the reason why I suddenly feel so blank. You know, my head is full of just so many thoughts, things I want to say but that feeling of blankness is still so obvious and it’s just there. This show just really moved me and I feel stuck in the reality that the show has pushed me into.

I am not going to explain what the show is about here, I am just going to tell y’all some things that the show told me and some things I got from it. Maybe, I’ll also be able to explain why I am in this state of not knowing what to feel(just maybe).

One big thing that the show speaks on is isolation. I truly believe that when most of us hear about isolation, we think of cases of people like Genie but isolation doesn’t have to be severe for it to be present. I feel like a lot of people in this world, although they have friends, and families, are suffering from their own type of isolation. Somehow, most of us just don’t feel like we have people around us and we just feel so isolated from the world around us. We can see the people around us but we can’t feel them. We feel stuck in this big bubble that can’t fit anyone else except us. We feel lost despite being surrounded by a crowd. We feel faraway, disconnected from the reality of people around us. We can’t seem to acknowledge this people who are around us. We truly feel stuck in our own little bubble that no one else can get into or maybe no one has tried to get into..

For some of us, it might seem like we are very big extroverts but the truth is that we really don’t know how to properly interact with the world around us. We feel away(gone) and we feel like no one is looking after us. We feel like no one can truly see us; we feel like people are around but are not truly there with us. So Yes, the feeling of isolation is real and many of us experience it, although most of us don’t acknowledge it, for whatever reason. Most of us do feel like this little unwanted pea amongst a field of big crops. We feel left out and not seen. You know, sometimes our feeling of isolation can be seen or perceived as a product of our imagination but you honestly can’t blame people(well, the ones who think like that) because sometimes we might just be too shallow to see beneath the surface. It’s sad but it’s reality..

Another thing that the show speaks on is not knowing how we feel; not being able to express our emotions. I think this is exactly what I am feeling right now; maybe I unconsciously got too deeply affected by the show. Anyway, the feeling of not knowing what we feel and how we feel is truly real.

Sometimes, we just don’t know.. You know, I feel like this can be caused by so many things. Maybe you’ve felt too much and now this feeling of blankness has been cast on you. Maybe you’ve been hurt too much and now your mind is just blank. Or maybe you just cannot explain it, I don’t know honestly because I have not got all the answers. All I just know is that this can truly happen to you and it doesn’t mean you are weird, you are just human; I think by now we should all have realized that being human is very complex.

If you are experiencing this feeling right now, I honestly don’t know what to tell you because I am also feeling it. I’ll just say that don’t let it stop you from moving. Don’t let it tie you up, you can still keep going but if you feel like you truly need a break, then go for it. Keep moving but realize that you are allowed to stop for a break sometimes. Don’t worry, you’ve got this! We are all going to be fine..

A quick photo break because I feel like it truly embodies today’s post!
Photo by Pat Whelen on Pexels.com

You know, when I started writing this post, I didn’t know what direction it was going to go but if you are reading this, that means you read it to the end. I hope you got what I was trying to say because you know, sometimes my thoughts are all jumbled up..

Anyway, don’t forget to keep fighting and I promise you because God is a good God, you’ll be okay. You can leave a comment if you relate or if you have any thoughts or questions. I really love reading comments and replying to them. God bless! Bye y’all:)

This is a picture I took and edited that I just want y’all to see🙃😌
p.s.it’s just an ordinary watch oo

Love you all always🤗🤗

These blurred lines..(a poem)

Even after washing and rinsing this thing I call a face,

My eyes still don’t see the clarity I want them to see

The lines are not straight and my head aches

I’m not used to uncertainty or this feeling of not knowing what’s next

After cleaning my glasses and wearing them over and over again

My eyes still don’t see the lucidity I want them to see

And I’m too tired to keep holding on if all I’m going to see are blurred lines

My strength is fading off day by day like the blurriness of those lines

All I can now see are faded strength, dwindled vision, and lest I forget, blurred lines..


Hi y’all, I’m going to start sharing my poems on here as well.. I hope you’re well🙃🤍 Bye!

I just found this random photo on the free WordPress photo library. I think it somewhat embodies what this poem means..

Love you all always 🤗🤗