But then I died..(a poem)

I used to love to read and write and eat and sleep

I used to love to dance and sing and run and laugh

I used to love the way reading made the feel. The way I loved movies so much

I used to love the smell of food and even better, the taste of it

I used to love how I loved to speak and argue until everyone heard me and understood me

I used to love everything I used to be and everything I dreamed to be.

But then I died

I couldn’t eat or sleep or dance or sing or run or laugh anymore

I couldn’t be what I’ve always wanted and all I’ve always wanted to be

I couldn’t see my very innocent sister’s smile when she asked me very dumb questions

I couldn’t see the way my mom cooked and cooked until she was covered in sweat and the pain that constantly hung around her

I couldn’t see the way my tired and ever hopeful dad always looked at me with pride anytime he saw my grades

I couldn’t be anymore.

Then I died and after I did

My dreams died with me

My love died with me

My loneliness died with me

My strength and weakness died with me

The voices in my head died with me

The marks I decorated my skin with died with me

The ugly thoughts I always thought about myself died with me

My happiness and sadness died with me

I died with me.


hi people! How’re you doing?! I really hope you’re doing ok!

For me, I’m pretty good. I just wanted to share this poem with you:)

thank you for reading!

byee:))

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that you’re so worthy🤍🌻

You are (really) never alone.

hi! How are you?! I really hope you are doing okay! If you are not, please don’t stop trusting in God and keep being patient. All will be well very soon:))

How am I doing? I am alright actually. I have been busy with school and extra-curriculars as always. I am just very glad that you are here reading this blogpost today;)

Let’s move on to today’s pretty interesting post..

A lot of times, maybe very frequently, there is thought that sneaks its way into our heads and it sometimes lingers in there for a while.

And that thought is, “I am (so) alone”.

“I have no one with me”. “I am all by myself in this world”. “No one cares for me”. “No one cares about me”. “I am just so alone”.

All different variations of the “I am so alone” thought just come to our heads especially at times when we are not feeling our best. At times when things aren’t just going well or maybe it could come when everything is going so well and all of a sudden, you are pushed into this deep dark hole trying to confront this thought and trying to fight it.

Whatever the case, however it comes to you, I just want to tell you that you really are never alone. It might seem so hard to believe but it is true. I mean there other 6,999,999,999 people around you, so yeah, technically you are not alone in this world. Right?(this is all jokes by the way).

Being on TikTok for a while has also helped me to understand that I am really, and also you, are not alone. Let me explain myself. So, you are going through something and you feel like you are the only one going through this thing or that you wouldn’t survive from this problem or whatever but then, you go on TikTok and you see someone else going through that same exact thing you are going through. This helps you to see and understand that in that particular problem you are never alone and this really applies to so many other things.

Like they always say, “there’s nothing you are going through in this life that someone else hasn’t gone through” and another one, “there’s nothing new under the sun”. So yeah in regards to this, whatever you are going through or thinking to yourself, you are not alone and never alone because someone has either gone through it or someone is going through it right now like you are.

It’s an interesting thought or perspective but that’s not the point of this post though.

I want to tell you that you are never alone because you always have Christ with you. You always have him by your side even when things look and feel extremely bad.

It is so easy to forget that we have God when things are not going well for us and when we are in some type of problem or issue. It is so easy to forget to keep trusting God when things aren’t looking good. It is so easy to forget that you are not alone in this walk; in these bad times, in these challenging times.

There’s one Bible verse that comes to mind while writing this. It is Deuteronomy 31 vs 6. It says,” Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.” Let’s break it down.

Be strong and courageous: Do not fear, do not worry, do not tremble, do not be scared, be bold, be strong..

Do not be afraid or terrified because of them: What is that problem or that issue or that thing that’s causing you to worry? Don’t be afraid because of them! Don’t let them scare you!

For the Lord your God goes with you: The Lord your God is with you, He stays with you, He is going with you, He is by your side, He is holding your hand!

He will never leave you nor forsake you: “Never” is the key word here! God will NEVER leave you. He will NEVER abandon you. He will NEVER leave you to be alone all by yourself. He is with you and He sticks with you.

This Bible verse is a powerful one. From it and so many other verses in the Bible, you see and understand that you are really never alone because God is always by your side. He never leaves you to be by yourself.

So, there is no need to fret and fight yourself and let yourself be dragged down a deep dark hole struggling with these “You are alone” thoughts because you are not and never will be. You are God’s child and His beloved and He loves you deeply, so you have to always trust that you are never alone, no matter the situation.

So say to yourself everyday and repeat to yourself everyday that you are not alone. That you will always have God by your side. That no matter what you’re going through, you have God by your side. Say it and say it to yourself and let yourself believe it because it’s true!


So, that’s it for this post. Thank you for reading! I pray that God will help us to see and realize that we are never alone in Jesus name. Amen!

Photo by Brianna Martinez on Pexels.com

-This picture just looked so fascinating and I wanted to share with y’all.

byee people!

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that no matter how much this thought comes into your head, you are never alone and you are never going to be alone.

My Chocolatey Brown Skin(a poem)

For the tenth time that day,

I stare and stare at the skin behind my fingers

I stare because it’s a wonder and a delight

According to my mum and dad and my best friend.

My friends call it chocolatey brown skin that reminds them of the KitKat bar no one could never resist

My parents tell me, chocolatey brown skin that reminds of them of Earth, of the soil, of the land.

I can’t stop staring because

Like the creepy man at the bus stop says,

It’s like the eight wonder of the world

And as I stare and stare at my chocolatey brown skin,

I wonder what the man I always see in the train sees

That makes him look at me with eyes full of disgust

Anytime he saw my chocolatey brown skin.

And then I wonder, what my boyfriend sees

When he calls me cocoa and all the names that belong to Starbucks drinks

I wonder what about my chocolatey brown skin makes me so different

I wonder what about it draws so much attention

I wonder what about it makes everyone extra sweet to me

I wonder what about it makes me less of a human

I wonder what about it reduces me to sugar filled Starbucks drinks

I wonder what about my chocolatey brown makes me keep staring at the skin at the back of my finger.


hii! How are you?! I hope you are doing okay!

For me, I am doing pretty alright! I just wanted to share this poem with you!

Thank you for reading as always:))

byee!

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that no matter your skin color, you are beautiful and beautiful and so beautiful.

Am I depressed?(a poem)

She looked at me and said I looked like I was depressed

She said I looked so sad and tired of it all

At first, I was so excited

That somebody finally paid attention to me

And saw how I was really doing beneath all my fake smiles

But then, I panicked

I wasn’t hiding it well, I wasn’t hiding my pain very well

The pain has over flooded me and I’m drowning in it

It has overwhelmed me and buried me deep under all of it

Maybe that’s why I can’t hide anymore and keep floating like I’ve always done

And then, I asked myself if I was really depressed

I’ve always thought of depression but I’ve never called myself depressed

I say it’s because I’ve never been diagnosed of it

Maybe it’s really because I’m in denial

And I don’t want to accept that I’m in pain and need help

Maybe it’s because I’m not even depressed but

Everyday, when the sun shines brightly but it’s so gloomy inside of me,

I ask myself over and over again, “am I depressed?”


hi! How’re you doing?! I hope you are doing okay!

Here’s a poem from me because why not?

Thank you for reading and I’ll see you in my next post:))

byee!

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that it’s okay to ask for help!

Is love a rarity?(a poem)

Is love a rarity?

An endless vanity

Filled with passionless insanity

A feeling characterized by great scarcity.

Is love a rarity, I ask

I wouldn’t know because I cover my heart with a mask

Hidden like camouflaged vodka contained in a flask

If it’s not, why does it feel like an unsolvable task?

Is love a rarity, I whine

If it was, they said you wouldn’t be mine

You wouldn’t have made me happy like my favorite wine

Even so, let’s forget these thoughts of mine

And find each other again this Valentine.


hi! How’re you?! I really hope you’re doing okay!

So here’s a poem I submitted for a Valentine’s Day Poetry Contest in school and I decided to post it here on the blog. Why not, right?

okay thank you for reading:))

byee!

*don’t forget God loves you forever and that it’s important to always be patient and not rush things!

In New York City

So, I moved to New York City in 2017 and I’m pretty sure you already know that story(it was the first post I published on this blog). If you are new here and want to know that story, check here!

When I first moved here and in my first three years of being here, I didn’t know that New York City was a pretty big deal. I didn’t know that people really wanted to move here. I also didn’t know that it was a major place. I didn’t even know that New York City was a whole other part of New York.

I just didn’t know so much about New York City!

However, I have just now realized that New York City is a very big and major city! It’s a place where a lot of people want to live. It’s a place where you can just meet your favorite celebrity walking on the street(well, I guess only if you live in Manhattan). It’s a place where a lot of big companies are situated.

Simply put, it is a place where a lot of big things happen.

Honestly, it can be very intimidating sometimes but I think it’s very beautiful to live here and experience what it’s really like to be a “New Yorker”. I am just so fascinated by it and that’s probably why I’m so short of words and just going to stop here.

Honestly, the whole reason for this post is just to appreciate NYC and being able to live here. I know that NYC is so romanticized compared to what it really is like but just being able to live in this city gets me smiling. I don’t know, I just think about it so much and little excited firecrackers go off in my head.

I know I said that I really love Lagos and might want to move there in the future but it’s not looking so sure for Lagos right now. New York is really the vibe right now!

I’m just glad to be here and even though, I don’t want to live here forever, I can’t wait to have my own NYC studio apartment with floor to ceiling windows and so many plants and art surrounding my space..

Like you guys know, I’m always thinking of the future and constantly planning. So, as I go on in life and as I grow, I’ll come here frequently to update you!

With all that said, thank you for reading today’s post and thank you for being here on my blog!


Before I go, I’ve to say HI!

hii! How are you?! I really hope you are doing alright. I also hope you have been very kind to yourself:))

How am I doing? I am doing pretty okay. I have been quite busy trying to do a couple of things. I have been to trying to get through by reading list for the year. Overall, I am ok! Just glad to be writing here;))


Before you leave, enjoy this beautiful photos of New York City that I found on the free WordPress photo library!

byee!

-You can check out my YouTube channel here for a lot of NYC vlogs🧋🧋

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that you should never say negative things to yourself!

A little less(a poem)

I talk to myself a lot

Constantly lost in the fullness of my own being

Sometimes when I’m in a room full of people,

I’m really in my head full of voices.

I talk to myself a lot

Because I can’t talk to others

I’ve tried and tried

This friendship thing but it never works

Maybe I’m better off just being friends with myself

Lost in the false reality I create in my head.


Hi everyone! Happy new month! How’re you doing?! I really hope you’re doing okay!

Here’s a poem from me to start off the new month! I’ll see you in my next post:))

byee!

*don’t that God loves you forever and that you should always be very kind to yourself!

Leaving you with this today🤍🌻