Sometimes, I feel so scared and guilty to be happy and you might feel it too..

hi y’all! How are you doing? I really hope you’re doing okay! If you are not, please don’t stop trusting in God and please keep trying to keep your head up high. Everything will be okay very soon and you will feel amazing very soon; keep being patient and keep trusting God:)

How am I doing? I am doing okay! I have a ton of assignments to do but I feel great anyway. I have been watching a lot of YouTube as well. Okkie, that’s all about me:)

Let’s move into today’s topic; it’s a very interesting one..

I just had an incident in the train, where I was playing a game on my mum’s phone with my sister. We were playing the “Word Search” game and we were trying to find all the words on time. It got to one word that I found but she decided to lie and say that she found it; anyway, fast forward to the end of the story, we were both trying to see who would click the word first and we burst in laughter, playing and smiling. Then and there, it did not feel like anything, I was just trying to be the first one to hit the word.

When I got to the house, after a while, I started thinking about it and I was just feeling very bad about it. I was thinking of the other people in the train and how they might have felt about it, seeing two people all smiley and playing together. I was thinking that what if there was someone in that train who had a very bad relationship with their sibling or lost a sibling or even didn’t have any sibling. I was just thinking of all these and I felt very guilty. I felt so guilty to be”happy” and to just even smile in public.

Tell you what, this is not the first time this has happened to me. I always feel so scared to smile in public or to even show a bit of happiness in public because I am constantly thinking of the people who have it so bad in their lives; the people who can’t even smile and feel like they don’t have a reason to smile. I think about it all the time and then I feel so so guilty.

I know it isn’t just me who feels this and experiences this because TikTok has taught me that whatever you are feeling or going through, someone else has gone through it or is going through it. So yeah, I know I am not alone on this, so I decided to write about it here on this blog.

Honestly, I have just a piece of advice for anyone who feels this and myself too.

You cannot make everyone happy and everyone probably wouldn’t be happy. You can do your best and be kind to everyone and try to bring smiles to peoples’ faces but you really cannot control everyone’s happiness. So, you need to stop feeling guilty for being happy; your happiness is a big deal and it’s beautiful. Stop feeling scared to be happy just because there are people out there who are not happy. Stop it and be happy, go after your happiness and smile often because it’s great.

Smile, celebrate yourself, your family, your friends because we don’t really know when we are going to die. So, be happy and chase after your happiness in a godly manner.

For the sad people out there in the world, who are going through IT, pray for them always. Pray for them and talk to God about them. Pray that they find happiness too. Pray that they smile one day, and keep smiling.

Also, try your best to be kind to everyone! While you cannot control everyone’s happiness, you can always bring a smile to one or two peoples’ faces. So, don’t be mean! Be kind always and show love to everyone!

Remember, being happy is not something to feel guilty about! Your happiness is important and it’s a big deal.

That’s all for today y’all.

thank you for reading!!

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bye y’all!

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and don’t forget to always be kind.