Beautiful Boy(a poem)

My beautiful beautiful boy

My boy with eyes so brown, they remind me of earth, of life, of hope, of being

My boy with hair so curly, they remind me of waves, of water, of joy, of freedom

My boy with very sad eyes and very thin body

My boy who is so lost and helpless

My boy who is too sick, tired, and in pain

My boy who I try to help but can’t

My boy that brings a smile to my face every time he smiles

My boy who rarely smiles these days and holds so much pain in his eyes

My boy who pushes me away because he doesn’t know he needs help

My beautiful boy who is alive but has been dead for a while now

My beautiful beautiful boy who I don’t know how to help anymore.


hi! How’re you? I hope you’re doing okay! If you’re not, I pray that God will calm you and visit you. Amen!

Here’s another poem from me because why not!

I’ll see y’all later. Thank you for reading!

bye once again.

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that whatever you’re going through right now, with God by your side always, you’ll get through it.

Poetry(a poem)

Poetry is more than ink on paper

It’s more than complex words and simple meanings

It’s the wool that wraps around me in the cold

It’s the tears that warm up my eyes in the dark

It’s the smile I hold back when I laugh

It’s the love that doesn’t feel draining

It’s the socks that keep my feet warm at night

It’s the bitterness in the coffee that I punish myself with

It’s the eyes that look back at me in the mirror

It’s the voices that seem deafening in my head

It’s the choices that I have to make

It’s the feelings I don’t want to feel

It’s the song that keeps playing over and over in my head

It’s the monsters that I feel under my bed

It’s the thoughts I don’t want to think

It’s the anger that I suppress down with a laugh

It’s the sadness I wash away with wine

It’s the eye bags that never leave my face

It’s the stripes that mark my body

It’s the scars imprinted in my being

It’s the folds that form when I’m me

It’s the good and bad and all in between

It’s the escape that reality is afraid of

Surely, poetry is more than ink on paper

It’s more than complex words and simple meanings.


Hi! How’re you?? I really hope you’re doing alright!

I just wanted to write something and that’s it. Thanks for reading..

byee y’all

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that you’re strong, beautiful, talented, and all the good things in the world.

Racism: WHY??

hi people! What’s up y’all?! I really hope you are doing okay. If you are not, please do not stop trusting in God and keep taking it easy! You’ll be okay very soon by God’s grace:))

How am I doing?? I am doing okay. I have been busy with a lot of school work and extracurricular activities but I am still living; I am just trying to take it easy;)

Let’s move on to today’s post!

What is Racism?

So, there are two great definitions of racism.

The first: According to thoughtco.com, “Racism is the belief that race accounts for differences in human character or ability and that a particular race is superior to other.

The second: According to thoughtco.com, “Racism is discrimination or prejudice based on race.

So, why does Racism happen??

Why do we as humans react negatively to other types of humans? Why do we hate some people and love some, all on the basis of skin color? Why do we show hatred for someone we have never met before just because of the color of their skin? Why do we attack people for wearing proudly the color of their skin? Why do we hate on people for their uniqueness? Why do we abuse people just because they don’t look like us? Why does racism even exist??

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

It’s a question I ask myself all the time and I am sure it’s a question a lot of us ask ourselves all the time. I am sure it’s a question that ponders our mind and lingers in our head.

Why exactly?

No matter the why, it still doesn’t justify racism and won’t ever justify racism! No matter the excuses we give, no matter what we say we learned, it still doesn’t justify racism. Nothing can ever justify racism and hating on people just because of their skin color or their race.

Skin color is beauty. It is uniqueness. It is perfection. It is all the beautiful things in the world.

So why do we hate on it? Why do we hate difference and uniqueness? Why don’t we represent humanity as humans? Why don’t we show love as humans? Why don’t we embrace our differences and hug our uniqueness?

Why do we fail to realize the pain we cause others just by hating them for something they cannot change about themselves? Why do we reject people for something that they were born with and cannot change? Why do we hate people for who they are?

Honestly, everything that is happening today regarding racism is like history literally repeating itself. History that has not been really kind to people of color. History that has constantly forgotten a lot of its foundation. History that does not recognize the sweat and hard work of certain people. History that has constantly cut off the dreams of people because of their skin color. So why is unkind, biased, and prejudiced history repeating itself?

Why is it that as a society, we are really regressing, in terms of racism? Why are people still not understanding that we all belong despite the color that decorates our skin? Why don’t people know better today? Why are people still attacking people just because of their skin color? Why are we not representing humanity?

There is a lot of whys!

We all really need to do better with how we treat people who don’t look like us; people who are different from us. Please understand that it’s never too late to become a better person; be a person that loves and respects every person of every skin color.

If what you need to do is unlearn and then relearn, then do it! Learn what is right and do what is right!


okayy, that is all for today! Thank you for reading and leave a comment if you want(please be respectful with your comments!)

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Enjoy this beautiful picture of Paris!!

byee y’all

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that it’s very important to love everyone despite our differences.

Maybe I just love YouTube(maybe..)

I started watching YouTube not long ago and it has been very very fun. By watching YouTube and seeing people simply create, I have grown to love the art of creating videos and editing videos.

There is a lot of talent on YouTube and it is mind blowing. It is so beautiful to see people document different things that excite them, and also share those things out to the world. YouTube just makes me really smile and it has become a source of great motivation to me(surprisingly, if I am being honest).

Earlier before I got so into YouTube, I didn’t think of creating videos and editing them but now, I really just want to do that. I have “fallen in love” with the art of making videos, filmmaking(if I want to be bold). I don’t know how to explain it, to be honest; YouTube has just captured my heart.

I feel like this is because it’s really only on YouTube where you see people post long videos, documenting different things. YouTube is fun, and that’s basically what this blogpost is about.

Due to my new love for making and creating videos, I “recently” got my own YouTube channel. It’s been really great, honestly. Seeing the videos that I made and edited on such a popular platform where anybody and everybody has access to it just makes me feel proud of myself a little. I feel like I am growing in a way and just really learning more about the things that really make me smile.

So yeah, I’ve got my blog, my podcast, and now my YouTube. It’s a little scary putting myself out there on the Internet but I love that I am going after things that I really want to do(for now). It makes me feel “fulfilled” in a way:)


I had a totally different post planned for today but I decided to share with you guys, my love for YouTube instead. Yeah, it’s fun-this is the only word I can literally think of!

Anyway, hi everyone!! How are you doing? I really hope you are doing alright! If you are not, please don’t stop trusting in God no matter what! God has got you forever, so you will be fine! Keep trying to stay positive:)

For me, I am doing better now. I have been busy with school and just preparing for different exams, and things to do for the summer. So yep, I am living:))


Thank you for reading this post today! I will see you in my next blogpost:))

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I searched for a New York photo and this came up; so enjoy this beautiful photo of New York.

byee!!

*don’t forget that God loves you forever and that you should always do the right thing, not the easy thing!!

A mini life update + podcast re-branding + YouTube channel

Hello everyone! How are you doing?! I hope you are staying safe and trying to keep your head up high! If you are not doing okay, please do not stop trusting God and keep trying to be positive. All will be okay, even when it really does not seem like that!

It really feels like it has been a while since I have been on here and I feel very bad about that. A lot has happened though and I removed all my followers here on the blog- this was an okay decision, by the way. I honestly kind of want to start again and start afresh-like a new beginning. I am also thinking of a new name for the blog. So yeah, that is what is up with the blog.

How am I really doing?! No worries, I will be talking about it a little bit here.

Mini life update

Okay, so, I have not really been okay which explains my absence here on the blog. This year has been a lot on me but my trust remains in God and I know that everything will be okay. Yeah, so I took a halt on my blog and podcast for the majority of January and I recently came back at the end of January. I honestly do not want to give up, so here I am fighting to keep going despite everything I am going through.

I have had a lot of bad days this year and it has been very not nice because whenever I go through that kind of day, I really don’t want to get out of bed and I just want to sit alone in a dark room. It’s not nice at all but I am fighting and trying to keep my head up high and to keep being positive; it has not been easy but I just have to keep fighting for myself, you know. That’s the life update:))

Podcast Re-branding

Alright, about my podcast re-branding that I told you all about some time ago, it’s been a mess. Due to all I am going through, I honestly took a halt there too. Although most of the work has already been done, I still have to catch up all the posts from the old Instagram page on the new Instagram page and that really is all that is left. This is not even hard to do, I have just not been able to get myself to do it but I will take it one thing at a time, and by the end of February, hopefully I will be done.

By the way, if you do not already know about this, I have a podcast called, “Talkative and Christian”. It is a podcast that is majorly about self-improvement, raising awareness on different controversial issues, and faith(Christianity). If you are interested, you can go to anchor.fm/talkativeandchristian. Thank you!

YouTube channel

I have a YouTube channel! It’s called “Barakat Jay” on YouTube. You can go check out my YouTube channel if you would like and while you are there, please subscribe and watch the videos. Thank you!

This is something I am really excited about and I hope it really works out amazingly well:))

Well, that is all for today’s post. I just wanted to update you all and get back on here to start writing again. As always, thank you for your support, I really appreciate it.

You can leave a comment, introducing yourself to me! I want to know more about my readers! Also, tell me how you are really doing in the comments.

I will see you all later! Byee!!

Don’t forget that God loves you forever and that you are never alone:))